Masters of the game~

My face is the representation of youth,
Yet inside,
I am old,
My eyes through which I see,
Show me nothing but gray,
And Sadness,
OH! The Sadness!
It claws at me from within,
Making my heart ache,
And my eyes water,
I search and search the darkness,
For a spider's thread of hope,
Of light,
OH! The Light!
Where has it dissapeared to?
To know you are to die ,
The need to see the light becomes stronger,
Hope kindles in my feeble heart,
Everything happens for a reason,
My fate is in the hands ,
Of the masters of the game,
We are all just players,
In the larger scheme of things.

Thailand~?

It's weird to think that this time tomorrow I'll be, once again, getting ready to board a plane. We've only been in Korea for a month ( happy one-month anniversary me~ (⌒▽⌒) )  
and now we are going on a ho-li-day to Thailand. We will be staying in Bangkok for my Brother's fab-u-lus birthday day which he hasn't stopped yapping about for the whole week. Then we will take a plane  (╥_╥)
then an overnight train ( ╥﹏╥)
then a bus  o(╥﹏╥)o
then a ferry  (;*△*;)
then a taxi  （ ＴДＴ）

We will finally arrive on the glorious island of Koh Tao which is a light year away from any supermarket and there is not a mode of transport in sight. One whole month of lying on the beach, swimming with the fishes and reading until my eyes cross. However, I have to admit, I am not completely ecstatic to go to Thailand. Reason 1: We only JUST got here.. I feel a bit weird setting foot on another country so soon. Reason 2: It is always so stressful when we go on holiday.. it's not like a holiday at all....it's more like  whatarewegoingtoeattodayohmygoshmytoeisbleedingwhydoesn'tthisguyspeakenglishwemissedthetrainyoucan'tsleepnowwejustlandedwoahthat'sagiantbug- a-day. But it's gonna be fun, as long as I don't get sunburnt like the last time, or chase away a shark by singing mission impossible through my snorkel... otherwise, it's gonna be great (〜￣▽￣)〜

Over and out ~

Dear Mom

Dear mom,

You are, in one word, my inspiration. Your poems, actions and words make me determined to ,one day, be just as good as you. You are my best friend. You are the one I want to tell everything to, the reason why I don't need anyone else because you will always listen. You are always the best person to turn to because  in your mind, you are still young so when you say "I understand" you aren't just saying it, you really mean it and your words come from the heart. That's what makes you special.
I don't need to tell you that you are an amazing mom, because you already know it, but you are a stupefying, stupendous, astounding,flawless mom, and I love you to mars and back times a trillion.  

Happy mothers day mom

I love you

♥

5 days

The countdown begins! It's only 5 days until we have to leave to the holy grand city of socks a.k.a South Korea, or, to be precise, the tiny, tiny, tiny,  island of Geojie. 

Because of my very poorly timed exams ( curse the education system) I now have to pack and study at the same time. It's an art I have mastered and even named, I call it: stacking. Let me give you an example: Last night, while packing my clothes into an extremely small bag, I was learning about the production, stages and harvest of wheat. Very intriguing stuff that is, let me be the first to tell you. If you ask me, I think it's a win-win solution!

I'll be honest with you now, I am not ecstatic to be moving back to Korea. I do like it here, my room, my bed, my pillow, my books, my crafting stuff, my shower... yeah... now I really don't wanna go. I don't have too many goodbyes to say, seeing as I don't have a whole army of friends.. I am not sure if this is a good or bad thing. Anyways, moving onwards from my very small social life. Lets get back to the feels. 
I guess it's not going to be so bad because we've already lived there.. so we know kinda, sorta, not really know where everything is. I mean, we've got our local sock shop, tayaki stall, Paris Baguette, and random-let's-store-everything-ever-invented shopping market. And we can kinda,sorta,not really speak Korean already so that won't be all bad either. Yip things look pretty good so far ( _ _。)
Oh but before we get too happy, there is one more thing to take into consideration: the flight... of doom. Yes everyone , the flight of doom. Over 14 hours of sitting next to some stranger who snores and keeps putting his arm on your arm rest and the constant need to pee.  Pretty much my worst nightmare....(￣ー￣;)

Well guys, I better go, I've got some more stacking to do ♥

Falling

The sky was black and starless
So many light's were on it looked like day
I tried not to breathe too deep
As I knew the nauseating smell that awaited
I was just a kid
I never asked for any of this to happen
Yet my words were pushed aside
Uncared for
Now the seas are black
The fish are gone
There are no more stars
I was just a kid
I wanted to laugh, to roll down hills, to shriek , to cry, to fall in love
As I sat on my window ledge
More tears fell onto my already wet hands
I cried for the starved children lying buried beneath the ground
I cried for the love we humans had lost
I cried for the Earth who had been a victim of our cruel naivety and greed
Standing up on my window ledge
I wiped my eyes
And saw, for the last time,
The night sky
As I stepped forward and fell
I swore I saw the real stars
Just once
I kept falling
fallin-
fall-
f--

The beginnings of a story continued

Before I continue with my story, I'd like to say, this is my 50th Post!!!!!!
Thanks everyone for viewing my blog, you inspire me to write

Well
Here you go  (｡･ω･｡)

“Hey mister!”

Standing before me was a girl.

The fact that she was a girl was not astounding to me, I had noticed many girls during my time here. The fact that she could see me was the unbelievable thing.

I was here to unburden the people of Earth from their foolish habit they call “emotion”. I harvested all their negative energy and the energy was then spread into the cosmos, helping the universe to keep going. The universe was suffering from an energy shortage. That’s why machines like me were created.

I was not meant to be seen

I was meant to be invisible to the human eye 

“Miiiister!!”

The girl was still looking at me. I tilted my head and raised my eyebrows. I could not speak. I was not designed for that.

I resorted to waving my hand. A greeting I had watched humans do.

The girl grinned and waved back. I nodded and looked away, hoping she would leave now but the girl seemed to have a different idea.

“I’m Alex, short for Alexandra, but don’t ever call me that” the girl stated, holding out her hand.

I stared at her hand, not quite knowing what to do.

“Well, let’s go then!” she exclaimed, taking my hand and pulling up upright with amazing strength.

I frowned, unable to decide what to do in this situation. I pressed a finger into my temple and an info card appeared on the top of the girls head. 

I stopped in my tracks. 

This girl had no information. 

I looked at the girl who was looking quizzically at me.

“What’s wrong mister?”

I shook my head and closed my eyes. Once again opening my mind to the thoughts of the world.

I found the little girls small mind and spoke

“You don’t have any information. You are an anomaly.”

“Of course” the girl replied in my own mind

“I am one of you”

Think about us kids

Lots of things are inevitable. Like dying for instance. Everyone has to go someday. Some things can be changed before they becoming inevitable , like becoming overweight our becoming a fugitive.  Sometimes people's actions can change the inevitable. I'm 14. That's means I have been on this planet ( in this lifetime) for around about 5144 days which is about 123 256 hours or 7 407 369 minutes or even 444 441 600 seconds. Doesn't sound too long does it? There are still so many things I want to do in this lifetime. I also have dreams.  I wish that one day I'll be able to wake up and relieve everyone of their hate and anger and sadness. I wish that one day I'll wake up and people will stop being so angry towards the planet and stop being so ignorant to what's actually going on around them. Lots of kids have dreams. Do you know how many kids are alive on this planet today? Every single on of those kids has a dream or ambition. Can you even imagine so many dreams? Some kids dream big and want to be superheros, others just wish that one day they'll be able to open a book and actually be able to read it. Shouldn't the kids of this generation at least have a chance to accomplish their dreams? But how can we do this if their isn't a world for us to dream on? The events that are going on around us are becoming more serious. Climate change isn't a joke. It never was. Even I, a child, can see the seriousness of this matter. 
When people are afraid of something, they tend to ignore the matter and make it smaller and  insignificant. That's what we have done. We have ignored the signs. The world is changing every minute and we need to wake up and see that. The future is looking bleak for the future generation. We don't want to wake up to smog-filled skies and black polluted oceans. We don't want to have to hear about another rain forest species going extinct. We don't want to have to worry about our own future. We want to laugh,cry, learn, run in the rain, play, imagine, pretend, shout, run, jump, fall in love. We want to be kids. We only get to live this lifetime ONCE. Let's all join hands and enjoy it. Think about us kids! Let's change the world : your already halfway there.